At the end, she was only flesh and bones

You gave me everything.

You gave me everything I could ever wish for and even more. You made me feel things i hadn't felt before. You made me go crazy about you. You succeeded to conquer my mind and control my thoughts. All of them were about you. You made me crave you like a drug addict.

After all i can say yes, you were my drug. You were so bad for me, you were only hurting me and made me feel like a mess, empty, not knowing if i have anything inside me left. But you were sooo good, so sweet you made me feel numb, forget about everything wrong in my life and made me believe in my self, something i would never do before. You made me feel like i was the richest person on the planet, having everything I've ever wanted, and all I did was you. I felt full, complete, a soul full of content.

You were an illusion. You were so perfect for me, so amazing,  you made me feel im worth. And then suddenly, i saw the real you. The real cruel you , who just left me out of nowhere, without any explanation. And i was just hanging there, with my naked soul watching you leaving.

You left me so empty that if someone shoted me that day, the bullet would go through my body and hit the wall. Cause i was empty , a black hole, I was nothing. I gave you all of me and i had nothing else at the end. Just emptiness.

And now I have to rebuild my self again all the way from the start. What will i be that time? How will i chose to create me now? Maybe a girl without emotions. A girl who doesn't care about love or anything anymore. A girl who only cares about having fun and playing with boys emotions.

"You made me hate the masterpiece i was so now I'm just a sketch on the last page of an old notebook"

Kate, 121216